Xiaoru

This year, I’m going to be more reasonable in my New Years resolutions.  No more of the generic “LOSE WEIGHT NOW!” resolution that gives me as much motivation as warm apple pie with ice cream on top does for my diet.  I plan to not make such extreme resolutions that are hard to keep and instead give myself an actual chance to keep them all year!  My two diet New Years resolutions for 2009 are very simple:

1) Keep active.  Exercise in some way at least 2x a week.

2)  Do not eat anything that I will regret eating afterwards.

I know exercising 2x a week isn’t that much, but hell — it’s a whole lot more than the 0 times a week I’ve been doing.  If I manage to get to the gym a 3rd or 4th time in a week, well then a pat on the back for being an overachiever!  I really like my resolution #2.  Instead of being so strict as to limit myself to “NO CARBS!” or “NO SWEETS!”, I will simply trust myself.  I know what is healthy and what isn’t.  I know what I should or should not eat.  I just have to take a step back and apply common sense to things I eat.  I love eating, but I hate the bloated, disgusting feeling I get after I gorge myself to oblivion.  That’s what I want to avoid.  Tomorrow is New Year’s Eve, and 2009 will be the beginning of the new me.  No more feeling sorry for myself while sitting on my ass.  If I’m going to feel sorry for myself, I may as well do it on an elliptical!

2009 will be an exciting year for me.  I’ll be graduating from college in June, starting Law School in September, and moving into my first apartment with my boyfriend of 7 years in the summer.  It’s a new year, a new start, a new life, and hopefully…a new me!

I’m finally done with finals and stress for a couple of weeks.  I know I haven’t been eating or exercising as well as I should, but today when I got myself on a scale, I was half a pound lighter than I was a week ago!  Now, I know that half a pound doesn’t seem like much, but it’s still something!  And even moreso, I didn’t gain any weight!  I was sure I would be heavier because I ate poorly this week and snacked while studying way more than I should have.  But, instead of being upset over just a half pound loss, I’m optimistic that I can do better.  I’m home now and will be able to eat much more healthy and do some exercise. I wish that we could track half-pound progresses, but hey — I’ll hopefully be able to enter my first pound loss in next week!

I’m the type of person who hates going to the gym.  Repetitive exercise is just boring to me, but I’ve been trying to find more unconventional ways of exercising, like ice skating, skiing, and yoga videos.  It makes working out a bit more fun!  Also, I’ve fallen in love with Luna Bars for women.  I can’t say they are delicious, but they definitely don’t have the chaulky taste that many other energy bars do.  It’s a healthy breakfast or snack substitute that is low-fat and has lots of nutrients.  AND - it lets me get some of my chocolate and sweet fix in without feeling guilty.

Today was a so-so day.  I flew back to Chicago yesterday, and then had a full day of work today with finals coming up.  My goal is to not fall vice to snacking this week as I study and prepare for finals.  I still haven’t be able to go to the gym, but I am watching what I eat.

Yesterday, for the first time in a long time, I did not eat anything after 9PM.  I usually go to bed late, but it actually felt nice to go to bed NOT full.  I felt in control. I want to keep up this plan of not snacking after dinner.

I find that as I start planning my meals beforehand, I am dreading social situations where food in involved.  I’m usually too embarrassed tell anyone I’m on a diet.  I can’t  really explain why.  Part of it is that I don’t want to explain to them why I failed again if the diet doesn’t work, but the larger part is that I don’t want people to know that I know I need to lose weight.  Does that make ANY sense??  But anyways, I’m trying to avoid situations where there will be unhealthy foods, or where I have to eat out. Unfortunately, today the lab I work at is having a end-of-the-quarter Pizza Party.  I have to make an announcement at it, so skipping is not an option.  Wish me luck in controlling myself!  I plan to use it as dinner, so even if I have a slice or two, it will count as a meal.  Also, I’ve been trying to eat healthy all day to prepare for this.

Hey everyone,

I’ve been a member of buddyslim in the past, but am ashamed to say that each time before I have failed on my weight loss plan and then stopped checking buddyslim out of guilt.  This third time around, I deleted my previous account in an attempt to start all over.  Also, I have made a pledge to myself to be completely honest.  No more skipping a weigh-in because I’ve gained instead of lost.  No more pretending that the extra serving of pasta doesn’t count.  No more convieniantly “forgetting” to write something down on my food journal because I don’t want to admit I messed up again.  Let’s hope this third time’s the charm.

I am a yo-yo dieter.  Each time I have a renewed sense of motivation, I do manage to lose a couple pounds but I always seem to lose my motivation and end up gaining back all or more of the weight I lost.  I am sick of it!  I don’t really know how to keep myself from failing at dieting again.  I know that the number one thing I need to control is my eating habits.  I’m still in school, so much of my daily work requires me to sit on my butt in front of a computer or in a desk, and I seem to always want to have something to munch on while I work.  I am also an emotional eater.  My weakness are carbs — rice, noodles, etc.  I have tried low-carb diets and they do work for some time.  But, once I start to eat even a little bit of carbs, I can’t seem to control myself.  Often when I eat, I know that I am eating way too much and that I should stop but I am guilty of the “since I’ve already messed up, why not completely mess up and finish the whole dish” mentality.  I’m also very bad at making myself go to the gym.  I know excercising is never as bad as I think it is, and I actually usually end up feeling good about myself after a workout.  But, I do need that extra kick in the butt everyday (or every week) to get myself to a gym.

Thank you all for reading.  I’m here to find people who can understand my weaknesses, and who are also looking for a buddy in this difficult but very rewarding challange.